Blown away so easily, yet im going after it

Smoking. One and probably biggest one of my bad habits. It keeps me sane, when everything else fails to do so. It also keeps me away from food and eating. Quitting would probably drive me to eat but cant take the risk. Eventhough I want to get rid of my little friend, aka eating disorder, I dont wanna get too big. The sad part is, I dont even know the difference between too big, normal and too skinny anymore. 

Im learning or at least, I'm trying to learn. I've decided to start excercising because I guess I wouldnt feel so bad about eating and gaining weight if I could see that my body structure is acctually getting better at the same time.

This really is harder than I thought. Even the thought of being 'fatter' makes me feel sick. Still I know I look like a skeleton, meaning I do not look good. When will I come to senses with this?

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Taylor Momsen

I've really started to like the edgy style of the young Gossip Girl star.

I really like the way she brings different elements to her dressing and how she mixes different styles. I'm quite into rock'n'roll and easygoing-styles and in my opinion Taylor does it perfectly. Keys to Taylor's style are layers, dark colors and different shades, mixing different materials like leather and knits. Do I need to mention that im absolutely madly in love with her long blonde hair and her skinny legs.

I made a little style steal collage. To create a relaxed rock-chick style, you need a leather biker jacket, messy hair, black dress/print t-shirt, high heels with attitude, red lipstick and some dark eyeshadow. Ad a little statement jewellery and sunglasses to complete the look.

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Welcome

Hi everyone!

First of all, welcome to my blog!

This is a blog about a young fashionista's life, struggling with low self-confidence, lots of stress and eating disorder. Have been skinny all my life, i've never known any other way. Willing to chance that but totally done with all the doctors. This will be my last try to beat this, so stick with me. I will be writing about latest trends, celebrity styles, food and any difficulties that come with it. I hope I can inspire people and hopefully you will also inspire me. All the ideas you might have are allways welcome!

Let's rock my world !